This is kind of a hard post to write. A lot has happened in the past few weeks that I haven’t shared with you yet.
First some sad news.
There was..is someone very special and dear to me who I’d visit a couple of times per month. I wrote about my experiences with her on here and we formed a connection, more than just friends with benefits. Then, one day, she told me she didn’t want to see me anymore and I was crushed.
The hardest part is having someone I felt so close to now thinks I’m an assface, that everything I told her was a lie.
The problem is, there’s no proof of purchase for adoration and respect.
Soon after that I started spending more time with another friend. We clicked and she asked me to provide service for her one day. I did and something else clicked between us as well, what started out as simple service turned into more.
More on that later.
Its and odd feeling, mourning the loss of one relationship with a person you care about while being thrilled about another new relationship.
So…that’s a small update. Some sad news and some great news.
More to come…
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How odd.
I am going through the very same thing right now.
Grieving for one and joyful for another.
I wish you healing and happiness on all fronts.
Thanks for the sharing,
Angel
I am half way with you at the moment. My dearest d has ended our relationship and I am torn apart with grief. BUT I am hopeful of finding someone new and finding joy again.
My thoughts are with you.
Sorry about what didn’t work out for you, glad for what did, but…
I am so so happy that you are entering this beautiful, harsh world of finding people who are special and dear to you, and having them get a good grip on your heart, which means they can rip it out, of course, of course, or pump it in the most wonderful ways.
Excelsior.
This is, in a way, great news. No, no, not the loss and sadness, but if you read your old posts and then this one – do you get what I mean? You’re connecting, you know!